I’m actually feeling really damn suicidal rn.I managed to gain 10 lbs from binging this week, and I am bloated as fuck but still need to go to school tomorrow. I legitimately can’t stop crying because of how ashamed I am. I’ll do a 72h water fast so I don’t feel like complete shit and get some weight off. I can’t believe I let myself get to this point.No clue how I’m gonna leave the house tomorrow.
So it’s my birthday today, and my friends and boyfriend are coming over for a sleepover. I love my boyfriend to bits but I just can’t relax when I’m naked around him, or anyone for that matter, so I keep avoiding it. He’s going to want to go for it tonight and I do too, but I don’t know how to get myself to realise that it’s okay. I haven’t eaten in over 24 hours but still feel disgusting. Any advice?